Sunday [11th of Feb]
i cant rmb exactly wad i did tat day.. so i'm jus gonna write wad i can rmb.. lol.. it was a pretty normal day.. if my memory serves me right... i woke up.. at lunch.. then watched tv... rotted... hours later.. got ready.. went out to meet with yonglin, bro n val.. yep.. we took some bus which i cant rmb wad... made our way to LaSalle for our first philyouth practice... reached there n i was like "wad do we do now?".. haha.. saw zizi there.. he had his philwinds exchange with some school.. cool huh... get invited to play for philwinds.. sigh.. i guess when u have the talent, everything comes easy... hmm... yah.. he went home with his frens... so, i sat down beside bro with our saxes... Mr David Glosz came.. he seem's nice... seriously.. we side read a few scores... n my oh my... my side-reading suck to the core... gosh.... wad happen to me? maybe i was too "nervous"... esp wen i'm sitting around ppl who i do not know.. n also... not seeing mrLim conducting in front jus makes me feel uncomfortable.. OVERALL.. despite the small size n the unpropotionate-ness of some section, we sound good... was quite shock actually.. MrGlosz was indeed shock too.. haha... so yah.. we played this song... n it was composed by MR MITSUO NONAMI... wahh... i miss tat guy when we met him at KL... his character cute ah... haha.. yah... i realised tat piece was composed by him until we finish playing the whole entire song TWICE.. lmao.. here n there... MrGlosz sed things tat i was SO inspired by... cos wadever comes out from his mouth, i r'cv an impact which is undescribe-able.. no words can describe the impact i felt.. lemme pick one..."there's a difference between error n mistake.. if u have practiced real hard n when u cant play sth NOT on purpose, its an error... if u din practice real hard n wen u cant play sth NOT on purpose, its a mistake.."
i smiled after he sed tat.. cos i truly understood wad he meant... aniways.. he sang a melody line from this piece called "Ammerland".. nice man.. how i wish i culd sing like him.... eh...this is sunday alone.. i've wrote ALOT...
rotfl...
moving on. . . .
Monday [12th of Feb]
went down BN to return my junior's instrument.. yeah... upon reaching there i was greeted by a group of band members sitting down doing their hw n studying... whoa... wad telah happen? so... i mingled... talked to my junior [ain] bout section stuffs n band.. yeah.. it was gr8 toking to her.. then helped Nad with her English hw.. then my section finally got settled down to hav sectionals.. so i taught them... yeah.. tat session i concentrated on 6/8 rhythm.. they somehow got it.. did Funiculi.. it sounds better... then yah.. went 7-eleven to buy this cracker.. fooled with them.. CY esp.. haha.. yah.. then went home...
tats it for monday...
moving on. . .
Tuesday [13th of Feb]
yep.. its the eve of Valentine's Day...sadness fills my heart each time i think bout 'US'.. aniways... gonna write wad i did... went down to Regent Sec to teach... yeah.. it was as normal.. nothing interesting.. after my session with them ended... decided to hav our dinner at CCK's food culture.. then my dad called.. he ask me where am i so that he can pick me up.. i was like "huh?!"... since wen u pick me up... then he told me we going to have our dinner outside... so i told him i'll wait for him outside CCK mrt... n yah.. i stood there like some goondu head.. haha.. 20mins later saw dad's car.. but he was on the other side.... so he made a U-turn... n yah... hop into the car... dad sed he wanted to eat at tat Prata Place at Thomson, then mom dunwan.. she wanna eat seafood instead... so we ended up eating at this seafood restaurant at CCK.. i culd have jus waited for them there.. so it was mom, dad, my sis n me... ate... the bill was 60bucks... [60bucks worth of food for 4 ppl is ALOT ok].. plus satay which cost 8bucks? i cant rmb.. it was alot uhs.. haha.. din take any photos... cant be bothered.. we ate...ida called while i was eating.. after we're done with our food, dad drove to a mosque nearby to pray.. then from there i asked dad to drive to Bedok Inter cos i need to meet a fren of mine to pass him my DAE form for Ngee Ann Poly.. thanks man! i was too busy with the other school's DAE form.. jus culdnt find the time esp wen i'm teaching...so yah.. after passing him the form... went Mac opp my house to buy bro's dinner.. n headed home... i was exhausted by then... i was TOO tired tat i slept on the couch while watching tv.. lol... in the end.. wen mom woke up, decided to force myself not to sleep n went online...
talked to Farah... yah.. i've got the "valentine's day eve jibbies".. i was acting like a jerk man... accidentally blurt out things to her... my feelings for her never dies... na'ah... er.. Farah.. talk to me please... pretty please... i wanna call u but i dun think its appropriate... sigh.. am such a JERK.. yah... hope u get wad i mean Farah.. :).. yah.. at the same time was talking to wayne.. n yah.. he made me look even JERK-ier after telling him bout my conversation with Farah... sigh.. so yah.. asked her indirect questions bout the wad ifs... hmm... aniways.. slept around 4 plus in the morning... woke up at 10 plus.. again... i've been waking up earlier n earlier each day.. very weird huh.. the later i sleep, the earlier i wake up.. n tat means tat i'll have lesser hours of sleep... gee... enuf bout tuesday..
moving on. . . .
Wednesday [14th of Feb]
OH CRAP! its VALENTINE's DAY..
i feel sad man... i've got no one to celebrate with..if only.... yeah... IF ONLY..... keep dreaming kHai... but dreams do come true... right? aha... yah... in the afternoon supoz to go down to FTP to make-up one session i missed last week with the section.. in the end i culdnt.. it was fer a reason ok... i had to meet sis... after waited for her for 20mins.. went to NYP to submit our DAE forms.. our DAE forms got cock-up cos we din put a photocopied copy of the Form A... so had to re-submit... it was 4pm by the time everything was settled.. in an instant we made our decision to make our way down to BN.. took train, dropped at Bishan then took 59... i slept in the bus cos din had enuf sleep last nite.. WHY? read on wad i did on Tuesday.. so yah.. dropped at Tech... went in tech to buy sth to munch on cos i was friggin' hungry.. watched the main band ppl had combine.. Funiculi sounds better... job well done peeps.. keep on practising n yes.. results will show wen there's hard work.. output=input.. yah.. after they finish their pract.. saw ppl exchanging valentine's day gifts.. yah.. wad i got was chocolates frm my jnr, Ain [thanks!].. well at least its sth... better than NTH... yah.. walked to the bus stop.. n Farah was behind me... wanted to bring her somewhere budden time doesnt permit me to do so... wad a waste.. SIGH!!! maybe next time.. er.. will there be a next time? who knows.. reached the bus stop.. changed our mind to go Mac... decided to go Simei instead cos the kesian boyz are heading there.. yah.. coincidentally, bro was there... we took 8... i din tok to him... SERIOUSLY I DO NOT KNOW WHY... i wasnt ok... wanted to talk to him bout it but i still hav tat uncomfortable feeling.. instead i rant it to bro... cos he was jus bside me... bro kept saying... "oh"... yah.. BRO [aslam].. if u'r reading this.. so so sorry.. din mean to not talk to u... yah.. during tat journey... yonglin noticed i wasnt ok.. he kept asking me.. i jus told him.. "i talk wrong, never talk also wrong".. n gav him tat sarcastic smile.. n ppl.. i've got a secret to tell.. i actually cried.. not profusely..tears coming out but i wiped it b4 it culd roll down... sound sissy huh? EH WAIT... wads wrong with guys crying...? isnt a harm..?
n WHY the heck i cried.. cos i tot of the times i was with her... Valentine's Day was the day she first accepted me to be her BF... n yah.. i kept regretting there after.. wad such a jerk i was... enuf sed kHai..
so headed Simei.. ate Banquet.. then walked around... then headed home.. yah... in the bus... i kept tinking bout the times i had with her... thru'out the whole day.. i keep seeing HAPPY couples.. holding hands.. giving n r'cving gifts... sigh... maybe tat triggered me to think bout such stuffs... hey... i cant run away from loving someone so much right? its tat unconditional love i have for her.. it never dies.. i feel tat, why have the flame when there's no darkness to light? interpret la eh... er.. hey girl.. talk to me... look.. i'm not being desperate or sth..its jus tat..i feel so lost w/o u.. please giv me one more shot...please.. i know its hard...
wadever tat's in the past, is the past.. starting anew is all i want.. lets move forward together.. :) n i aint rushing anything here.. take ur time... after ur o's probably? now, i jus do not wanna hurt u animore, concentrate on ur studies.. be happy... so long u'r happy, i'll forever be happy.. (:
god.. i sound so despo... I'M NOT DESPO ouhkay....
well thats all i guess... such a lengthy post... my oh my.. sorry guys.. i shall update everyday then.... :)
its 4:46am now...
till then..
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~kHai.inc_outZ~
be mine when the time comes?