i need to be tranqullized after this entry.
c'mon khai.
be strong and you'll get thru this entry.
YEA RITE!
today's botanical garden's performance was ok.
rehearsal was waaay better than the actual performance.
*sigh*
one thing for sure.. i screwed my solo.
ONE - i was nervous
TWO - i din stand nearer to the microphone, therefore my solo wasnt projected. (according to An Chun)
*sigh sigh*
after the performance went to watch the other bands perform.
when TKGS was playing their last song, we had to leave.
waited for out bus.
some funny thing happen.
the guys got HIGH when they saw pretty girls from the other schools.
some of them were showing one side of them that i've never seen before. (idham esp)
*winks*
got into our bus.. headed back for BN.
farah said she wanna take pics with me but in the end, didnt.
*sigh*
its been sucha long time since i last took a pic with her.
hmmm..
well that would be 2 years ago?
ok shut up khai.
went Macdees. it got me thinking in that place.
WEIRD HUH?
all my problems rushed into me.
ARRRGGGHHH!!
msged Eddy bout' sth.
ate McFlurry to comfort myself.
while eating, did ALOT of thinking.
whats the use of me saying it here.
i mean.. since... ahhh.
nemind.
just a disclaimer,
if u cant accept anything.
do i look like i give a damn bout what u think?
well.... I DONT GIVE A F*** ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK.
THIS IS MY BLOG FYI.
i SAY what i WANNA.
GOT A PROB?
lets move side track abit.
i do not know what my life would be w/o this ppl.
1. Nina
2. Idham
3. Finah
4. Ogy
5. Fauzi
6. Fairuz
7. Izzat
namely, those are just SOME of them.. there's more..
w/o them, i do not know what will become of me.
there were times that i would like to go back to my bad habit
(which is to slash myself with a penknife)
[record by me: more than 100 slashes on each arm. NO JOKE]
ok.. thats out of point.
but to come to think of it, with all this ppl around, i find that doing stupid things will end me up being stupid.
well.. that is clearly understood.
so... lets just be grateful with who i have now.
the term 'Family'.
what's next for a broken family?
what happens when all starts not to care?
what happen when all starts to lead their own life?
ok.. i must say that i've been sucha pain in the ass lately.
BUT i've tried all best.
MAYBE not all.
BUT i'm trying.
ok.. its REALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO TYPE IT ALL HERE.
i'll just type what comes right to my mind 1st.
------PART ONE------
SO...
as being much more mature and wiser.
i guess i know what i'm doing.
if ppl are offended by the fact that i know what i'm doing.
ASK YOURSELF THIS 1ST.
secondly, if u'r someone i know thru someone..
ask urself...
please eh......
i cant accept that FACT.
I'LL JUS SAY.. "AWWWWW..TOO BAD!"
ACCEPT IT.
i think before i say things.
if u still cant read in between the lines,
that just prove that you're one hell of a dumbass.
for that matter.
I DONT GIVE A DAMN.
BE IT WHO YOU ARE.
BE IT WHAT YOU SAY.
get a life.. oh please.....
go complain to ur _________.
IF U HAVE THE CHEEK TO SAY THAT, WHY CANT U JUST SAY IT RIGHT TO MY FACE?
stop being an ass.
and stop contradicting the facts that u'r NOT..
u'r destroying one part of me.
geee..
cant believe this kind of ppl exist in MY life.
------END OF PART ONE------
ok...
i really need to compose myself.
i really need a break.
i really need to get out of this stupidity at its best.
so in order to free myself, after much thinking, i've decided to just leave it all to fate.
other than that..
WHEN I THINK BOUT THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER, I'LL STOP MYSELF.
EASY AS THAT.
and
million of apologies to certain ppl.
esp Finah.
pity her man.
i'm really really sorry.
*sigh*
WE'RE BROKEN.
i guess its just the 4 of us now.
with that...
I'M PUTTING MY BLOG
ON
HIATUS MODE.
(also)
*SIGH*
if only killing oneself is not a sin, i would do it right after this entry.
well.. who knows.. u might see me now but the next time u'r looking forward to see me, i'm MIGHT not be there animore.
-WHO KNOWS-
till then...
my life suck
keep taggin'
`khai.INC~
"on hiatus"
"ANSWER ME HONESTLY AND I'LL SHUT UP."