Perhaps an entry before I hit the sack.

I was sort of angry with myself today (Friday).
For a reason of course.
My plan the night before was to study for my exams.
Well, so I did.
But tiredness soon took over me and my eyes could open no more.
So I told myself,
"You know what Khai, You really need a break."

And so I did take a break.
What pissed me of (with myself of course) was that
a nap turned into a sleep.
Instead of scheduling my body clock to take an hour worth of rest + nap,
I slept like a dead log till 5:30 in the morning.
The moment I woke up and noticed the time,
I went,

"Oh my goodness! I have not finished studying and I am left with an hour and a half to cover up the remaining topics!"

Well, that's one part to it.
Another part is that I knew that I am that sort.
The sort where I know the bare consequences,
taking the risk and end up getting smacked.
Yes, it really pisses me off.

The paper that I will be sitting for is rather important as it is the module with
the highest credits.
(Cos if I fail it [*touches wood*], it WILL jeopardize my GPA as a whole.)
With a clear mind, I realise that it is of no point to "whine".
I calmed myself down and began stuffing the remaining facts into my sleepy head.
But I guess it all turn out good.

Sat for the paper.
5 questions; each question with answers as long as a short novel.
But yes, there was a lot of writing.
My hand was in serious SERIOUS pain.
So to secondary school kids out there who complains
each time you are required to write a 350-500 word composition,
spare a thought for me.
(I actually asked Danial Afiq)

Anyway,
imagine you have to write 5 pieces of paper front and back with no single spacing.
That is how much we were required to write.
I'm side-tracking.
So anyway, the paper wasn't that bad as I thought it would be.
But definitely, with confirmation, that I did miss out certain points.
I finished the whole paper though.
:)

I was in a serious emotion-dysfunction.
I do not know what I was feeling after the paper.
Firstly, I was tired (even with the "nap")
Secondly, I was overjoyed that I have one less paper now.
Thirdly, I was kind of disappointed because I could have done a better
job if I did not take the risk of taking a nap and spent the time to study.

Well, looking on the brighter side, at least I have one less paper now.
And the holidays that I am anticipating now is drawing near.

Update: 5 down, 3 more papers to go!

All in all,
what I am trying to say is I really need to change this attitude of mine.
To stop taking risks for the wrong reason.
I think this has rather been a habit.
It is inevitable.

Oh boy!
An entry about me.
You have learned more about me.
As long as you do not judge me just by this entry,
I am cool with it.
Let us just take it as a learning process for us.
For me actually.
I am still growing ain't I?
There is always sufficient room for improvement and it is only due
that with the experiences I face daily, it shapes me into a better person.
Definitely.

And I have just realised something.
I did not use any Haha(s) in this entry.
I am NOT emo-ing just for the record.

The remaining papers are being spread out throughout next week.
So, I can somehow relax a bit.
Maybe I shall make blogging a daily basis;
especially with so many things to blog about.
I'll TRY.

Alright,
time for me to hit the sack.

Ah yes!
Before I really end this entry.



HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY

..to my lil' sister.
Don't be so naughty.
Listen to Mom, okay?
Love,
Abang Anwar.
(Am wondering how my family gonna celebrate her birthday tomorrow)

& yeah yeah,
Abang Anwar?
hahaha!
Yes!
That is what my sis calls me.

Till the next entry,

CHEERS!
Peace out!