*EDITED (With pictures)

Philwinds concert was great. Last minute extras for Symphonie Bombastique; to play the hand chimes. I had fun playing 'U Trau' on stage. Together with the choir and all. I think that was the best I played by far; out of the many rehearsals we had. Headed out to the concourse to meet up with the others. I was greeted with a package (Will get into it later on). A bright package I must say. Headed down to Bedok Interchange to have our supper at McDonald's. Headed home around 1230 midnight. Ok. I do not want this entry to be flooded with what I did the whole day. Instead, I would love to dive into that package I was talking about.


Those were the only words that came out from my mouth the moment I flipped that album collage up. I started unwrapping the bright-red shiny paper at 2.26 am (exact).

I flipped the A3 size hard board which says 'HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL'.
"One Band, One Heart, One Sound" with the band collage and then flipped another page up. My reaction?

I went, "OH..... MY..... GODDD............. OH...... MY..... GODDD!"

It was pages full of the band members birthday wish. Secondary 1 all the way up to Secondary 5. 60 wishes, on 5 A3-sized pages. For me. Well, I'm hoping you people are reading my mind because no words can describe how touched I was. Note to note, as I read, I was smiling. Like a retard if I may add. It was hell of a good feeling to read every single note. Appreciate those wishes.
Up till now, I do not know how to express myself with words and definitely MANY MANY MANY thanks to those contributed to it. I am seriously touched. SERIOUSLY seriously touched.
BN Band, you're loved by me. :)

Next was a section from the Alumni.

Miss Lim's wish was in it too! Cool stuff lah. And Rafidah had a number of wishes. She keeps emphasizing that she's cute. But hey, that made me smiled.
And the one from Wan, "Hello hello. Bukak seluar nampak telor." Hahahaha!
"Giler Co. cum Zoombies Club" section was next.

And again, Rafidah flooded the page saying that she's cute and all. Heh. I counted, 5 to be exact. Yes Fidah, I am sure people would find you cute too.

I did not expect the next section at all. A section from the Kesian Boyz.

Haha! COOL STUFF.
Ogy! Don't know how to write Tamil don't write lah. Anyhow only. Haha! Izzat's one was funny. Hazizi's? Haha! He was being a cute-ass. Funny stuff.
---> "Hieee!! Euu is veri gud! Moi wish euu happi Birdday! Hehexcs@#!~"
Fairuz's was meaningful and the others was CRAZY. Like I have said, I had fun reading that page.

The next couple of pages, I was trying hard not to think of what's been happening. Instead, I tried to read everything with a happy mind. It is from the SE7ENs.

The 1st page are from the brothers. Eddy, Idham and Aslam's.
I love all 3.

A little bit special for these people. From me, to you.
Anyway, I typed this in return of what they wrote in their birthday letter to me.

To Yuri aka Dydy aka Eddy:

Yo bro! If you're reading this. Thanks for everything. Yeah, more or less it has been slightly more than 2 years since I have known you. 2 years and 4 months to be exact. I'm your long lost brother? At times I feel that a part of me is in you! Honestly, I just find it freaky. & my jokes are lame? Aren't yours too? Haha! Will tell you more with regards to that enlightenment you need. Once more, thanks for the wishes bro.

Love,
Bro.

p/s: Yeah. Canada trip shall be postponed till further notice. Hahahaha!

To Badutku aka Baby Bob aka DJ Sammy Sempoi aka my retarded ass aka Idham:

Hey dude! No doubt, time being with you was incredible. And no worries lah. We will always have a common understanding even at times when we are 'fighting'. I would feel guilty most of the time too if that is what you wanna know. Because living a life without you in it, would probably be so darn boring. Thanks for the wishes and about the little debts you owe, like I have said, take your time dude. Whenever you can. And consider yourself lucky if I totally forget about it (Which has already happened for most of the time). Don't have to pay back also can. Just treat me more often! Haha! Nah, kidding.
Thanks for the wish once more.

Love,
Bro.

To the little one aka Slam aka Aslam:

Though I cannot really remember when I was a listening ear to you, but hey, it was my bad if I wasn't. Maybe perhaps I was so busy that I did not really take the chance to do some catching up with you. I certainly can tell that you're not open about certain things with me. I only have myself to blame. We are so busy that as each day passes, we get drifted further and further and as a result, turn out to be what it is now. Like I have said (I do not know whether you'd remember), you have a life to lead. So am I. If at times that you feel that we don't talk to each other that much, just remember that I should always be there.

And I reject the initiative you took, seeking for forgiveness. Not because I am being a total ass but I should be the one seeking forgiveness instead. I honestly insist. No worries dude. And I shall be looking forward to the happiness and laughters that is in store for me. And thanks for the offer. Will take note of it. You take care too.

Love,
Bro.

Next page was the wishes from the ladies. Finah, Nad and Nina's. Again, this is from me, to you.

To Pynah aka Finah:

You were the one that I have been talking to the day I was feeling low. Sorry for the much negativity, which I vomited on you in the conversations. Anyway, I was touched with one of the sentence in the second paragraph. Thanks for the wishes and sure do, I will retain this "young" image. Hahaha!
Thanks for the wishes once more.

Love,
Bro.

To Nad aka Nadirah:

So much of your short letter eh? Haha! Will probably get my driver's license by the end of the year hopefully? Latest should be next year before the month of May I suppose. Need extra income so, that will take a while. A family car for us? Hmmm... After reading that, I am really looking forward for that day. All of us, in one car. Hah.

Yep, known you for 3 years plus already. Seen you grown in character. Physically wise, you're still the little one I know 3 years back. And no worries, it is not the shortest and the worst birthday letter I have gotten. I appreciated every single word of it.

And it was only till recently that we did some catching up. I know how you feel Nad. I guess we're on the same boat. Talk to you soon. And after sooooo long, someone called me 'abang'. The last time someone called me that was EONS ago (Apart from my younger sister of course!). I was touched.
Anyway, thanks for the birthday letter.

Love,
Bro.

I shall be real honest with the next one. I was in tears by the time I was reading the middle part of paragraph 2. And I somehow wet Nad's letter which was next to it. That would actually be evidence that I actually teared. Ok, cried and teared, to me, has a different meaning. So, try to differentiate yah?

To Nina:

The past few days have been terribly tough for me. And definitely, I am sure it was hard for you too. Jumping to your blog, reading in silence, all I felt was guilt. I disappointed them, and I have definitely disappoint you, for that matter. I know, all you wanted for me was to make me enjoy myself. Because you always wanted the best of me. As I read that entry with US in it, I cried. Yeah, I did. I couldn't take the punch of guilt that I just broke down. Browsing through my folder with our pictures, would bring nothing but tears to my eyes. Even now, as I am looking at the picture that's been pasted above your letter.

If you are sorry for what that's been happening, I have nothing against it. But I truly insist. I should and must be one saying sorry. I don't care how hurt I was or how deep the cut is, with ego aside, I am seeking for your forgiveness. I kept telling myself how much I can't bring myself to stir up a conversation with you. I was just in a state of confusion. And I definitely do not know what to feel, sensibly.
I left the younger ones confused. I am always aware of that. But no words can describe how proud I am of you to stay strong for them.

I did not like the album collage. Instead, I LOVE IT. And to those who were part of making that album collage, a simple thank you is just one out of the trillions.
*This is the point that I teared heavily*
After reading the 3rd sentence of the 2nd paragraph, I finally stood strong and believe that no matter what happens, even when there's no one else in this world, at least I know that there are 6 other people who cares about me just like how I love and care about them.

Another thing. The day that we would go on our separate ways, will never arrive. Because I do not intend to. I definitely will not forget every single one of the memories created. And of course, I do not want it to stop here. Creating more wonderful memories for till the day I shut my eyes and leave this world, in peace.

Thanks for the wish (which made me cried).
Definitively, you, together with the other 5, has a special place within my being, life and my heart. And NO, I thank YOU for the light.

Love,
Bro :)

Woah. It's close to 6.22 am now. I better get going.