Will not do a proper update today. Just thought that I would wanna blog something out, just to unload things off my chest. Call it, a random entry.
As for the previous entry before this, I broke down because regrets were all that I was feeling. Ok, maybe not only just that, but perhaps I cannot accept things as the way it is now. Most of the substance or molecules in me is filled up with regrets and I just have to keep telling myself now and then that I am no superman. I cannot create wonders. I cannot create miracles and I definitely cannot make things to go my way.
Now there is another thing that is worrying me. It is actually money. Yes, I am openly saying this out. I am super broke and to make things worst, there are SO many things for me to pay off. I do not wish to be a bloody parasite and keep asking my parents for money. They have been paying for my mobile bill and to top it all off, they have to pay for the house utility bills and yeah, you get my drift don't you? So instead, to survive on my own, I went to look for a job and have already applied for it. Whether I am accepted or not, I shall leave it to Him.
Some of you may think, I teach and earn 50 bucks per session, isn't that enough? The answer is no. 200 a month is not enough. Bare that in mind, deduct my transport fee and all miscellaneous stuffs. And when there is something for me to pay off, the entire 200 gone into thin air; leaving with only a few cents in my wallet.
I have been trying to stay at home to avoid unnecessary spendings and till I feel that I am self-financially stable, I shall keep all of my activities with whoever on hold. If straight-jacketing helps me to refrain myself from going out, let that be the solution!
Anyway, I can't say that my life is a screwed one because I know, there are people out there who are facing far worst than me. I am thankful with whatever I have with me now and that shall be my treasured treasure.
I guess that is all for now. An entry on NAFA Orientation 2008 will be in the next one.
Ciao!
As for the previous entry before this, I broke down because regrets were all that I was feeling. Ok, maybe not only just that, but perhaps I cannot accept things as the way it is now. Most of the substance or molecules in me is filled up with regrets and I just have to keep telling myself now and then that I am no superman. I cannot create wonders. I cannot create miracles and I definitely cannot make things to go my way.
Now there is another thing that is worrying me. It is actually money. Yes, I am openly saying this out. I am super broke and to make things worst, there are SO many things for me to pay off. I do not wish to be a bloody parasite and keep asking my parents for money. They have been paying for my mobile bill and to top it all off, they have to pay for the house utility bills and yeah, you get my drift don't you? So instead, to survive on my own, I went to look for a job and have already applied for it. Whether I am accepted or not, I shall leave it to Him.
Some of you may think, I teach and earn 50 bucks per session, isn't that enough? The answer is no. 200 a month is not enough. Bare that in mind, deduct my transport fee and all miscellaneous stuffs. And when there is something for me to pay off, the entire 200 gone into thin air; leaving with only a few cents in my wallet.
I have been trying to stay at home to avoid unnecessary spendings and till I feel that I am self-financially stable, I shall keep all of my activities with whoever on hold. If straight-jacketing helps me to refrain myself from going out, let that be the solution!
Anyway, I can't say that my life is a screwed one because I know, there are people out there who are facing far worst than me. I am thankful with whatever I have with me now and that shall be my treasured treasure.
I guess that is all for now. An entry on NAFA Orientation 2008 will be in the next one.
Ciao!